nutrition

So, I've been a little frustrated lately. As a feminist, I often struggle with my goals of health, fitness and weight loss. My professors often talk about "beating one's body into submission" as a woman. Or conforming to what media messages say we should look like, what ideological structures hold us to. I'm not overweight, but I'm not completely happy with my body right now. I guess I just don't know if my goals for a thinner (not emaciated mind you) more fit body is driven by what I see around me, instead of what I know is right for my body. I know that I will be more comfortable and confident with myself if I get back to a healthier weight, but I have trouble distinguishing the source of this goal. I've been trying to lose some weight now for several months, actively since mid-June at least. I'm a fairly recent vegetarian, and I eat as healthfully as I can (for the most part). It's difficult in college, where the most tempting food is to eat out at restaurants, and fresh fruits and veggies go bad when your on a crazy exam/paper/work/sorority schedule. I guess I'm just struggling with whether I'm working this hard for the "right" reasons.